Living Brian Viveros Girl

Self portrait I decided to do in the style of Brian Viveros. He is hands down one of my favorite artists. I absolutely love his work, so i thought i would create an homage to Mr. Viveros. www.brianmviveros.com/

I've been falling stagnant lately. Before I hit the area of complaining about how I'm unhappy with my work or anything else, I just decided to get to it. I didn't turn on the tv or plop down in my bed. I set up the shot and started working on my make-up. and roughly 45 minutes later I was ready.

Blackground, laundry basket tripod, a hobbled together flash, and probably the shittiest digital SLR. It's been through hell and back. Someone cut the flash wire on it, the batter door won't close so it's taped shut, and it's probably been dropped more times than anyone would like to admit. But a camera is a camera. And while it would be nice to have a Canon 5d mrk II to myself. I'll take what I can get. Cause this is proof that it isn't about the equipment it's how you use it.

And it's fantastic cause I shot on saturday with a model. Nothing lined up for this week, but the weekend looks like sunday might have some space...

Subtle and then that moment hits.

When you are out in the field shooting sometimes you know you have it. It just hits... That's how it happened while I was shooting Zoetica. I saw her raising out of the shadows. Visions of tentacles, symbiote like texture, raising her out of the shadows, out of the deep. I went with subtle. Several people hadn't noticed them till second look and that's what I was hoping. I want images that will get people to come back. To look a second time.

Dating.

beetleginny well it wasn't a date till i realized half way through that it might be.
louobedlam suuuure
beetleginny no seriously. i was like halfway through dinner.
louobedlamand he's all, "so, we're gonna fuck, right?"
beetleginny that's what tipped it off.
louobedlam {chew chew}
louobedlam "right?"
louobedlam {takes sip of wine}
beetleginny and then I'm sitting there like this: O_o
louobedlam while he taps his fingers on the table, waiting for an answer
beetleginny all dates will eventually lead to me making this face O_o
beetleginny it's just the fact of the matter something always happens
louobedlam"and that's when i discovered my inner vagina"
beetleginny "and that was how i killed the 34 puppy" O_o
louobedlam "but i figured i'd keep it in a bottle afterwards. and now my skin is so clean, so shiny. you ever keep yours after you...ya know?" 0_o
beetleginny "and that's the reason why i got the tattoo of satan fucking a unicorn..." O_o
louobedlam"and...i know it's our first date, but i tattooed your name on my chest" O_o
beetleginny "and that's why I won't ever let you out of my sight... ... .. ever. " O_o
louobedlam"i just....i just think you smell so good i want to stuff you in my nostrils." O_o
beetleginny "and that's why I made a likeness of you composed entirely out of yr legshavings." O_o
louobedlam "and that's why i keep all my dead skin" O_o
beetleginny "and that's why I've never cut my pubic hair" o_O
louobedlam"i only gave the dog a blowjob, but people were still really pissed" O_o
beetleginny "and I carved my name in a place you couldn't see, so i don't know why she was that mad about it." o_O
louobedlam"so what if she's my aunt? it's just sex, it's not like i loved her" O_o
beetleginny "I don't see why more people don't try to give themselves oral, It's perfect, you know where your mouth has been and you know what you like!" O_o
louobedlam "i like to think of myself as Tri-Sexual" O_o
beetleginny "and so that's why I lose my temper like that when anyone even looks at a girl I"m out on a date with." O_o
louobedlam"i really think i can make it through tonight without coming." O_o
beetleginny (at dinner)
louobedlam"no, really, blood tastes better than you'd think." O_o
beetleginny "so that's why I keep all ejaculate in my freezer in the garage. and I carry one vial with me at all times." O_o
louobedlam "sometimes, late at night, my penis tells me things. about you." O_o
beetleginny "so listen that was really the reason I was outside yr bedroom window naked." O_O?
beetleginny "oh you didn't see me...." O_o !!!!!!!